Conversations vs. Confessions

This is my first time blogging so pardon the raw and unrefined caliber of my blog. I'm sure you may be wondering why I picked my blogging "name". I contemplated creating this blog because I want to use this as an outlet for me to express my inner thoughts, but not necessarily want the world to read. I'll elaborate on that a little while later. Why not paint, or draw you ask? First, I'm not artistically inclined and secondly, I enjoy writing. Why not write in a journal? I used to keep journals, but eventually I have to either throw it away or put it away in some place I won't find until 90348320943908239839 years later and end up throwing it away anyways. I would love to have conversations like these with my husband, and/or my friends, but the truth is, I can never express all that I want to say. I think way too much. My mind goes at a 10 x infinity rate of speed.

As I previously said, I was fickle about the idea of this blog because let's face it, these are my thoughts for strangers to read. Thoughts that can sometimes be sweet, ignorant, controversial, funny and everything in between. I soon realized I was thinking too small. Why make this blog a confessional and one-ended; why not view it as a forum-like venue where readers can interpret, analyze, and comment on my thoughts and perhaps help me figure out what it is that I'm trying to express. Hence the conversations part of my "name" and as for the banana, it was my childhood nickname, and I loved bananas when I was an infant first able to eat "solid" food according to my mother of course. I don't know how this blogging thing will work out, but thus far I foresee a nice therapeutic way for me to just "talk".